it was big, it was... it was powerful. and i was... and it was all alone. and i was so incredibly attracted to that one lone jaguar. i would make my father stay back, and i would lean over towards the bars and i would start talking... >> simon: you talked... >> rabinowitz: ...to the jaguar. >> simon: ...to the jaguar? >> rabinowitz: i did talk to the jaguar. >> simon: do you remember what you said? >> rabinowitz: i would say how people are stupid, how they don't understand me-- clearly, the same way they don't understand you. how they're locking you up in this cage the... the way i'm locked up in my own head. those are the things i would... i would talk about to the jaguar. i made a promise over and over again that if i ever got my voice back, that somehow i would help that animal. help that jaguar, help these animals like him. >> simon: alan rabinowitz has kept his promise. devotion to jaguars became his religion. before he got married, he lived alone in the jungle, just to be close to jaguars, doing then what he does now-- learning more about them every d